DISCLAIMER: SWEARING AND "I-JUST-DON'T-GIVE-A-DAMN" ATTITUDE. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK.

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INTERWEBS FIGHTING AND FAMILY DRAMA
PART OF A BALANCE BREAKFAST
ONLY 100 CALORIES
FUN FOR THE WHOLE FAMILY
TRY IT TODAY!!
(Warning! Side effects include: Vomiting, Bitching without people being around you to bitch at, Mood Swings, Lack of Appetite, Sudden crying for no reason, and explosive diarrhea.)

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In my family, I was always known as the quiet one.. or maybe the depressed one that never smiled. Either way, I didn't get into trouble like my sister did. I always thought of myself as the good girl.

But now it's gotten to the point where the quiet one doesn't want to be quiet anymore. For the last two months, I've heard and dealt with things I wish I never had. And, finally, it's time I finally release what I've been wanting to say... for almost 10 years...

To my family in Mississippi.. to my uncles and aunts.. my cousins.. my family...

Grow up.

For years, I have sat on my hands and watched this family tear each other to pieces. I've watched this family argue with each other to the point of ruining family get togethers, and everyone leaving only an hour after we meet. I've watched Grandpa die while the family BITCHED and MOANED about what they were going to do with him.. WHO was going to watch him..

I've sat here and watch my father do STUPID things.. make STUPID mistakes.. but break his back to do EVERYTHING HE COULD for his family... Only to have his brothers shoot him down with hateful words.. and accusing him of being worthless.

To my uncles.. You should be ashamed of yourselves. To fire my father, when he's done everything right for you. To fire my father so you can hire your twin brother. The twin brother, the other uncle, that practically RAN AWAY to another city when Grandpa died. The twin uncle, who wouldn't visit Grandma during Christmas so he can go have Christmas with his new wife's family. The new wife that talks bitterly about the family she "married into." The twin uncle that always used the excuse that he was tired so he didn't have to come over to visit his mother and family.

THE UNCLES THAT DARE HAVE THE BALLS TO SAY MY FATHER WASN'T DOING ANYTHING FOR MY GRANDMOTHER AS SHE CONTINUES TO GROW WEAKER AND WEAKER EVERY DAY.

THE UNCLES THAT DARE SAY SHIT TO MY FATHER AFTER MY FATHER HAS SPENT THE NIGHT WITH HIS MOTHER, WATCHED OVER HER, AND DID EVERYTHING HE COULD ANY TIME SHE NEEDED IT.

This family is terrible beyond words. Bitter and hateful.. Shameful how you act to each other. Thank God Grandpa died when he did.. So he didn't have to see how far you have fallen from grace.. from each other.. from God. Grandpa kept this family together, and with his death, apparently, came the death of this family bond.

And to my mother's family.. to the ones that threat my sister and myself like complete garbage just because they don't like my father. My sister and I getting the short end of the stick and treated like retards because of bitter feelings.

And I'm not even going to start on Katie...

And you keep asking why I moved to Wichita...

And I keep asking myself the same question...

Why do I stay here and continue to let my in-laws constantly drive me insane to the point where I wonder if I made the right decision in marrying Adam?

They're slowly tearing us apart.. and over what? The most stupid things.. the most petty things.

It's gotten to the point with Heather that all our conversations are:

Me: no u
Her: no u
Me: no u
Her: no u
Me: I know you are but what am I?
Her: no u
Me: no u
Her: YOU'RE SO IMMATURE
Me: NO U R!
Her: STFU
Me: no u
Her: no u

Oh no! I talk to Angie more than I talk to you? How about because Angie doesn't get offended by EVERYTHING I SAY. That instead of getting SUPER PISSED, she actually asks what I meant by it if she doesn't understand.

ARGH! This family makes me sick to my stomach!

My in-law family that accused me of having Jason SO I CAN HAVE ATTENTION AND SO PEOPLE WOULD LIKE ME MORE.

My in-law family that said to my face THEY THOUGHT I WAS NOT THE RIGHT PERSON FOR ADAM AND THAT I WAS RUNING HIM.

My in-law family that says I'M ruining him, but treats him like a little child STILL!

My in-law family... my grandmother in-law.. that, in front of everyone, made fun of me for getting fired...

My in-law family that tells me I'M NOT A GOOD CHRISTIAN. And why is that?! Because I actually read my bible that you accuse me of not doing? Because I live by the law "Judge not least ye be judged." Because I don't try to do away with the rights of others just because I don't like how they live their lives...

Lives given to them by the God we worship. Lives and free will given to them.

Yeah, because I don't try to take that away.

You know.. I remember someone doing that years and years ago.. what was his name...

..oh yeah..

Hitler.

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I'm not going to stay quiet any longer. I'm not going to walk on eggshells with anyone. My tolerance for this has drawn to it's end, and I'm so very tired.. Mentally and physically. I have so much in my life ahead of me than to deal with peaty bullshit from all sides of my family.

Jason will end up dealing with the same stuff I did. Dealing with a grandmother and a side of the family treating him like the little rere of the family, because they don't like the other parent. Because choir practice is much more important than first birthdays...

Jason will get the short end of the stick, because of me. Because of how Adam's family feels about me.. Jason will suffer.

That's the only remorse I feel now.

And now, I end this angry letter. How many phone calls will I get? How many times will this get passed to family members? How many times with people only copy and paste to others their choice sentences to make me look like such a horrible person.

Well, to close it, I don't care. To my entire family... you are not Christians. You all are angry... bitter... people.. who judge.. who treat others and family like crap.. who gossip.. who spit on people when they're down.. and who climb on top of your family and push them down.. so you can get to the top.

God help you all.